Laying on my bed in my bedroom that is done exactly the way I wanted it as a little girl on a Sunday afternoon... it just feels perfect to put some thoughts to words...
I have a wall in my room dedicated to faces that are huge part of who I am today, filled with things that are already a part of me right now and pictures which will be a part of me soon... I can't help it but to allow my mind and heart to wonder...
As a little girl I was called hyperactive, while I was growing up I was the troublemaker, as a teenager I was disobedient, when I left home to University I was the black sheep of the family.... I was constantly getting into trouble, I was the misfit, mismatched... what ever you call it! At work, I was the one that constantly looking for something else, getting into trouble... I will oversleep most of the mornings as I could never fall asleep at night... my brains were working so hard when everyone was sleeping! The song Manic Monday by Bangles was sang especially for me and that was my story every morning!
I just couldn't fit in... Finally, I was called the crazy one, the unrealistic one, and my family warned the younger ones to stay away from me...
To look back those years, those days... they were the exact reason that saw the birth of my organization NorthStar, that craziness and unrealistic me is who created NorthStar Africa and contributed to 1000s of people living a different life today... that is the same girl that flew to East Malaysia and made 1000s of people listen and follow her and even to the remote areas of long houses... I made a difference... that is the same crazy girl who packed her bag and roamed India for 4 months and came back and till today i still treasure that trip as my best spiritual journey i ever done! I did Eat Pray and Love even way before the book was written...
Last couple of years, somehow I got entangled with the world around me and became very careful, I wanted to fit in, I became realistic and lost my craziness crown and guess what... my results were just so ordinary and plain... Lately, I kept asking myself what changed...
Finally I call it a quit! Yes, I quit... I quit becoming ordinary, I quit fitting in, I quit being realistic, I quit being normal! Once again, I reclaim my craziness crown and I am back on the crazy adventure as that is the only way to live my best life!
Live Your Best Life
