One thing that my dad has instilled in me is the habit of reading and continues search for excellence... I am forever grateful for dad who has been my first teacher and his strictness gave me no other choice than to make books my best friend!
This continues search for wanting to be better, later part of my life led me to a group of people who believed living life to the fullest. Again, I was put in an environment that gave me no other option than to strive to be the best I can everyday... and this is where my real search for answers began...
Recently, the topic 'Live in the present' kept coming back to me... as I kept asking myself what do I do to take myself to the next level... You see, I am a very imaginative and creative person... at times too imaginative that it works against me...
What can I do, blame it on my piscean nature... :)
I picked a book accidentally during my last trip that totally talked about it, read it, great book, I moved on, also have been meeting some wise friends who talked about it... again, good to listen, I listened and I moved on... met a friend for lunch yesterday who said, I should let go and live in the present... interesting, again we are here... so what do I do... like usual, listen and continue with my day to day activity...
While I was driving back after the meeting with friend, something in me reminded me of the 'Live in the present' again... could this be the answer I am looking for... so, what do I do? Read another book... talk to another friend... scream... jump... ignore... what now?? While all these questions playing in my head, my hand picked up my phone and called another friend who has been huge part of me lately and these friendship happened by divine design I call it... I met this friend later for casual catch up and while talking to this friend, I realized it was like talking to myself... some where, some how, that conversation threw me off balance... the confusion and pain hit me again! I know this feeling... this is the exact feeling that demands for change!!
I left this friend, spent sometime with myself, recollected myself and yes, I know clearly now, I need to let go of the past, stop controlling tomorrow and live in the present! Finally i am beginning to understand, it makes no difference where I come from... who I am today is not who I was yesterday and I will never know who I will be tomorrow but today is all I have to live this day to the fullest...
I also understood, when I seek or ask questions, answers are everywhere but usually I choose not to see it... at this point, He has no other option than to instill pain and to force me to act... guess, pain is really not a bad thing after all and without pain, I will not have these intensity I have today... and the moment I learn my lessons the pain goes away and what seems hopeless suddenly feels hopeful and its a nice feeling... :)
So, my new year resolution... live today to the fullest, its NOW, DISCIPLINE, CONSISTENCY and INTENSITY! Happy 2011!
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