It has been almost a month I have stayed on track with my battle to reclaim my body and i must say it has been the best month after so long!
I graduated from the beginner in the gym to the intermediate level and to see my weight drop bit by bit every week surely puts a smile on my face and the best part is when ever i see myself on the full mirror... i see a different girl everyday!
For 15 years I lived thinking I will never be able to fight this weight battle and I am meant to be fat for the rest of my life and others should just accept me for who I am but today I can already see myself in swim-suits :)
Fighting my battle brought me back to the people around me... you see, I run a success academy. I am always faced with people who come to me and say, I wish things were different, I want more money, I want to be debt free, I want more time bla bla... but when I give them a program to follow they have another 1000 reasons why they can't make adjustment to their lives today!
After a month in the gym, training 5 times a week with my fitness coach, making adjustment to the way I have been eating and seeing the results, I am more then ever convinced that what ever in life you desire will be yours as long as you are willing to make enough modification to who you are today!
It is so true, the sky is the limit but the real question is how much are you willing to modify your life today for more? It is really a choice between settling for what you have today and fighting for what you want tomorrow!
Live Your Best Life
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Sunday, April 4, 2010
My life is my best teacher!
Today I was watching Oprah on tv and coincidentally she was talking about loosing weight and she said people who are over weight are usually hungry for something in their life. Rarely people gain weight because they are hungry for food! She talked about herself and her weight battle... she said she realized her hunger for love was fulfilled with food!
That got me thinking... what am i hungry for and what have i been fueling with food? What am i craving for... This brought me back to a training I recently attended. During a process, I realized that since young I always had a feeling of emptiness inside... somehow this unknowingly has effected huge part of my life. Now, i realized i have been feeding this loneliness with food! This body of mine has suffered so much because of this... I am so grateful at this size and weight I am able to do so much!
Guess my recent desire to loose weight also came from the fact that i realized what was holding me back at the training. The moment I recognized that part of me and accepted that, my desire to take care of myself and to loose all the extra weight came almost effortlessly!
I was talking to my best friend about my new discovery and my friend sent me this message and it is really beautiful... After so long, this weekend I was alone at home and I really enjoyed every bit of it. I got so much work done and I actually woke up early to start my day! I can't remember when was the last time i had a meaningful weekend like this!
Message from my best friend...
When you have found yourself, being alone is a privilege, not a punishment.
All the good work that you do comes when you are alone.
All your dreams are dreamed alone.
Your best dreams are dreamed alone.
Your best ideas are conceived in solitude.
Your dream of a better world and the contribution you will make to it will also come when you are alone.
Your creation and inventions, your solutions to problems that most vex you, all come to you in isolation.
It is only when you are by yourself that you can be receptive to the stillness of your inner voice.
This is the voice that tells you what you need to know, the inner directive, the heart of your soul given word.
This solitude is the place from which your originality and specialness issue.
In your aloneness you hear music and see art most clearly. Only when you are alone can you receive the gifts the world presents.
In your aloneness you are in touch with the energy that runs the world.
It is the place where God speaks to you and where you become God.
The things you take from this place fortify your spirit with grace, forgive your ineptness, and fill you with new resolve.
Learn to love being with yourself. It is the highest place to which you can aspire!
To my best friend, thank you for always being there for me and always reminding me that my life is my best teacher!
Live Your Best Life
That got me thinking... what am i hungry for and what have i been fueling with food? What am i craving for... This brought me back to a training I recently attended. During a process, I realized that since young I always had a feeling of emptiness inside... somehow this unknowingly has effected huge part of my life. Now, i realized i have been feeding this loneliness with food! This body of mine has suffered so much because of this... I am so grateful at this size and weight I am able to do so much!
Guess my recent desire to loose weight also came from the fact that i realized what was holding me back at the training. The moment I recognized that part of me and accepted that, my desire to take care of myself and to loose all the extra weight came almost effortlessly!
I was talking to my best friend about my new discovery and my friend sent me this message and it is really beautiful... After so long, this weekend I was alone at home and I really enjoyed every bit of it. I got so much work done and I actually woke up early to start my day! I can't remember when was the last time i had a meaningful weekend like this!
Message from my best friend...
When you have found yourself, being alone is a privilege, not a punishment.
All the good work that you do comes when you are alone.
All your dreams are dreamed alone.
Your best dreams are dreamed alone.
Your best ideas are conceived in solitude.
Your dream of a better world and the contribution you will make to it will also come when you are alone.
Your creation and inventions, your solutions to problems that most vex you, all come to you in isolation.
It is only when you are by yourself that you can be receptive to the stillness of your inner voice.
This is the voice that tells you what you need to know, the inner directive, the heart of your soul given word.
This solitude is the place from which your originality and specialness issue.
In your aloneness you hear music and see art most clearly. Only when you are alone can you receive the gifts the world presents.
In your aloneness you are in touch with the energy that runs the world.
It is the place where God speaks to you and where you become God.
The things you take from this place fortify your spirit with grace, forgive your ineptness, and fill you with new resolve.
Learn to love being with yourself. It is the highest place to which you can aspire!
To my best friend, thank you for always being there for me and always reminding me that my life is my best teacher!
Live Your Best Life
My biggest personal battle
Recently, I got myself a personal coach to help me fight one of my biggest personal battles in my life - my weight!
You see, I have been over weight all my life! My mum said, she refused to carry me when I was a baby because each time she carried me, her hands will be swollen! I never heard my dad saying anything else to me except for... I need to exercise! I have always been very cautious what I wear or when I had to change for physical exercise even in primary school! I always had to wear a L or XL! I do not remember fitting into any other sizes!
I have tried occasionally to loose some weight but never got anywhere! So, some how recently collected some courage to sign up for a personal coach! It was a combination of my friends effort, some new realization about myself and probably the most important contributing factor would be... realizing I couldn't do it alone and I needed help!
The first day at class, like usual... the over alert me... turned up like 30 minutes earlier! I was too anxious... the 25 minutes wait in the car felt like the longest 25 minutes of my life! Finally, collected my stuff, walked few steps and there bumped into my coach in the car park... his warmth smile helped and I began to relax... he said, not to worry, today gonna be simple stuff... and I was thinking, how simple can it get in a gym!
I had to do some fitness test so he can gauge my physical level and can tailor a suitable program for me... we went from one step to another and then finally we came to the bicycle! He said i have 10 minutes and give all I have! I sat in that bicycle and the last I did this was like 14 years ago but somehow I felt so happy... and when I finished he said, in my experience no one in your weight, your size has done this timing with this speed for 10 minutes! He gave me that smile... and I know that smile... the smile that says... girl, you are not bad at all!
That day brought me back to 14 years ago when i was much lighter and used to enjoy mountain biking so much and I started the mountain bike club for my university and all this while I thought I have lost it! Today, I realized for no reason the fear has stopped me from claiming my energy, health and my fitness back! I enjoyed my first day in the gym so much that I couldn't wait to go back again! I committed to 3 months training with my coach to reclaim my life!
I left that day with a smile on my face because i know I already won my battle!
Live Your Best Life
You see, I have been over weight all my life! My mum said, she refused to carry me when I was a baby because each time she carried me, her hands will be swollen! I never heard my dad saying anything else to me except for... I need to exercise! I have always been very cautious what I wear or when I had to change for physical exercise even in primary school! I always had to wear a L or XL! I do not remember fitting into any other sizes!
I have tried occasionally to loose some weight but never got anywhere! So, some how recently collected some courage to sign up for a personal coach! It was a combination of my friends effort, some new realization about myself and probably the most important contributing factor would be... realizing I couldn't do it alone and I needed help!
The first day at class, like usual... the over alert me... turned up like 30 minutes earlier! I was too anxious... the 25 minutes wait in the car felt like the longest 25 minutes of my life! Finally, collected my stuff, walked few steps and there bumped into my coach in the car park... his warmth smile helped and I began to relax... he said, not to worry, today gonna be simple stuff... and I was thinking, how simple can it get in a gym!
I had to do some fitness test so he can gauge my physical level and can tailor a suitable program for me... we went from one step to another and then finally we came to the bicycle! He said i have 10 minutes and give all I have! I sat in that bicycle and the last I did this was like 14 years ago but somehow I felt so happy... and when I finished he said, in my experience no one in your weight, your size has done this timing with this speed for 10 minutes! He gave me that smile... and I know that smile... the smile that says... girl, you are not bad at all!
That day brought me back to 14 years ago when i was much lighter and used to enjoy mountain biking so much and I started the mountain bike club for my university and all this while I thought I have lost it! Today, I realized for no reason the fear has stopped me from claiming my energy, health and my fitness back! I enjoyed my first day in the gym so much that I couldn't wait to go back again! I committed to 3 months training with my coach to reclaim my life!
I left that day with a smile on my face because i know I already won my battle!
Live Your Best Life
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